Today is hard because I have gotten to the other side of three joint replacement surgeries and I’m still not better.
Today is hard because it is Saturday and my son who lives 750 miles away is in town and I probably won’t see him til Wednesday.
Today is hard because I have hit that wall after surgery where you think you’re moving forward and instead you fall, fall, fall, into that dark pit of dispair and self-pity.
Today is hard because I can’t do anything for myself and everything I do is effort.
Today is hard because is is 5 days before Christmas and everyone is baking and shopping and wrapping and celebrating and I want to be but can’t.
Today is hard because I am taking all my rage and anger and dissappointment out on the one person who has been there for me through it all. I can’t stop myself and I hate that.
Today is hard because I have lost all empathy and compassion for anyone else but myself and it is an ugly thing.